Inspiration Lost.

I swear to all of you...I'm not dead.

I cannot quite seem to figure out which end is up lately, and quite literally I've found that blogging about it isn't helping me find my way. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining...  My life is awesome, it's just that lately I've been trying to figure out my happy medium. It seems like once I get to a place where I think things are kind of sailing along and going fairly smooth, things get really choppy... I do have to stop and ask myself at this juncture though, Isn't this life? Isn't this kind of what it's all about? The challenges...

I think sometimes, no matter how much I pretend that I'm ok with it, I'm tired of being challenged. I'm tired of things not being smooth sailing, or in the least bit, predictable. I'll be the first one to tell you that my life isn't boring, but I'm pretty sure that you didn't think that anyway. I will however be the first one to tell you, It's OK! I'm fine with it! I'm not sure who I'm trying to convince here. I guess I think the more I tell myself that it's all OK, that it really will all be OK. And in a whole lot of ways, it really IS OK. Like I said, I love my life, my life is really awesome, but it's these speed bumps, these constant challenges being thrown in my way that are keeping me on my toes... I think part of my issue is that I'm really kind of tired of living my life wondering what's next. That's actually a big part of my issue right now. And that my friends, is getting OLD. I don't want to have to wonder when the ball is going to drop. I'm not trying to be pessimistic but you see, when the ball has fallen as many times as it has, it leaves one to wonder right? I have a point right? RIGHT? Be on my side people... STICK WITH ME HERE.

Anyway. I think I'm done. Actually I'm totally fibbing, I'm SO not done. I'm sure I have tons more things to talk about... None of them are really things that anyone wants to hear about though, so perhaps I'll just reserve them for another occasion. I also have tons more things to talk about  pertaining to the kiddos, school, vacation, and Disney World! Hopefully I'll be more up to the challenge of posting in the next few days. Sometimes just getting over the initial hump of this post, after such a long hiatus, is what I need... But I'm not making any promises. Maybe that will make me feel more inclined to talk...

Oh, and for those of you who were looking for a follow up post to Mommy Kitty! She did in fact deliver her kitten... That's right, KITTEN. Singular. She just had one little baby. She delivered exactly two weeks to the day that we got her... We are in deep deep smit with the Momma, the baby however, he's just OK. He started off sweet as pie, and now he's mean as a snake. Maybe it's  because I dress him up like a leprechaun? Probably not, but regardless he's mean. Like spitting, hissing, growling mean... Think I'm gonna have a hard time finding a home for him? Yeah me too. Thank God he's cute, perhaps I can get rid of him based on looks alone. Heh...

Comments

[cindy]

Great post. I relate. I'm glad you're not dead! :)

[Ker]

I obviously haven't been here in awhile. What with life and all,but I read your post and yes, he looks like he's FULL of "naughtiness". Gotta love 'em though!

[sonja]

Glad to see you are back! are you? anyways I miss your posts!

[Erika]

I keep checking for an update - I always enjoy your wit....either here or on FB - I will get my fill of what's up with the 5 one place or another. And thanks for warning me on baby kitty - while he is ADORABLE with those blue eyes.....he would not work well in my house. I need a snuggler now that my babies are all grow'd up!

[Melis]

Glad you are not dead! I have SO missed your posts!

I will also pray you have a super boring week and weekend and next couple of months. I know how nice it is to wish for some 'down' and boring times.

Let's set up a playdate or something. AC missed your girls. :)

[Tina]

I have been a "lurker" on your site for a while. I came to your blog through the triplet connection (I have triplet daughters). I just wanted to tell you I think you are an amazing person and mom, what I know from you blog. I pop in periodically. I think you kids are adorable. I wish and pray for you boredom. Tina

[Nita]

I am hoping and praying that some day, you have a completely uneventful, blissfully boring time. Until then, you know where to find me.

Oh, and I am so NOT adopting that crazy ass cat.

[Beth]

i can relate to where you're coming from. i remember a good friend of mine told me years ago that there's nothing wrong with things being "boring" from time-to-time... i now know what she means!

glad that overall you're doing okay. i've missed your posts!

[Anna]

Glad you are not dead. Thanks for the post.